This is my start date for chemotherapy. I get it every 3 weeks. 6 cycles of it with 3 treatments in each cycle, so that makes 18 weeks of chemo. My treatment ends in mid January, with reconstruction 1 month after that. So, if all goes well, I will be ready to teach swimming lessons by summer! That was a big concern of mine.
My first oncology visit was today. I didn't expect it to hit me as hard as it did. The doctor told me that my cancer cells were beasts. The rate of reproduction was crazy fast and aggresive. They got it all, but want to make sure of it...hence chemo. Also, I have a 30% chance of it coming back. If I do chemo, it goes down to a 15% chance. If it comes back, with the type of cancer I have, I will be out of options. I really, really don't want to do chemo, but what choice do I have?
I found it interesting that I knew all of this. However, having it presented to me in black and white, on official medical transcripts was final. And although I knew it, it felt like I was seeing it for the first time.
So what I need to ask of you is this...keep praying for me. Today, things are rough. I'll be alright, but sometimes facing reality knocks you off your game. Today I was faced with big buckets of cold hard reality.
Lauren, sweetie, I've never stopped praying for you. Hugs to you…. <3
ReplyDeleteI love you Lauren. Our prayers for you are constant! Logan especially prays for you every chance he gets, even over snacktime. ;) Hugs to you my dear, strong sister!
ReplyDeleteI don't think anyone has stopped praying for you, we understand how serious it is! We prayed every day before, but now more intent, specialized and more meaningful. I love you and know this has to be hard on you, it's human nature, and, you're amazing!
ReplyDeleteThe Gordon family have you in our prayers.
ReplyDeleteThe prayers will not cease, Love. xoxo
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