Claustrophobia Anyone?

As it turns out, I don't enjoy MRI's. I had a little bit of anxiety going into this because I am super claustrophobic. Luckily I was able to lay face down, eye's closed with music piped into some headphones. But then, I was moved into the TUBE. You know how I could tell? The air...I could feel it and immediately the heart-rate went up and the shallow breathing began. You know what I did? I reminded myself of all of the people who prayed and fasted for me. I concentrated on breathing in and out and I listened to the crazy loud noises the machine made. It totally worked! I'll tell you what, though. If there had been a single strap of any kind put over me...anywhere...I'd have been toast.

Let me illustrate for you...for my birthday this year, Adam gave me a Rusty Wallace racing experience where I got to drive a real race car on the track. I went through the training course, suited up, put on my helmet, climbed into the car, and got hooked right the heck up. This means that after all clips, clasps, hooks, etc were fastened and closed, I couldn't move. Not my head or body...the steering wheel was fastened in after I was and the gear shift was the ONLY think my hand could reach aside from the wheel. I began hyperventilating...I tried everything I could think of to stay in that car...up to the very last second. I thought I'd die...literally, my chest was constricting and I could not take in air. The pit crew ran over and pulled me out before death happened (sorry...a little exaggerated, I know) and I was so disappointed.

I tell you this because I want you to understand just how nervous I was today. Which means that because of your prayers and fasting, I was able to be blessed with the peace I needed to make it through the procedure.

Now, about the procedure. I'm sure I'll know more about it when I speak to my oncologist on Thursday. I was given contrast in an IV which is a dye that highlights what needs to be seen better...like a tumor or something that they may have missed. SO, until Thursday...